Trying to decide

In 3 days I will have to pay another $65 to South Beach if I want to keep with the actual site…

I’m trying to decide if I want to cancel or go at least one more month. In the end I’m not using the site itself as I’d expected. I use this site as my main log in and base touching journal. I don’t have time for the message boards so though I really thought that would be a great feature to have, I’ve not used it once all month. The recipes are great, but I’m also finding I don’t have time(time is always an issue isn’t it) to do more than one of their recipes per a two week span. So the ‘days’ inbetween…they’re just getting passed over because I eat whatever we have on hand as I rush through my day.

I’m kind of sad on this as I’d hoped to be doing more of the different recipes than I am. And that actually is probably the number one reason I’m even considering staying on board for one more stint. Maybe if nothing else so that I can get organized, collect a bunch that I’d like to try, save some of the meal combinations for throughout the day and then drop out and just continue here.

The other thought of course is - stay until I reach my goal. I’m starting to hit that ‘hard’ time where staying on board consistently is being challenged by the constant go we are in what with all the sports going on. This is the reason I usually give up. I need a collection of quick and easy recipes/solutions for meals that will help me achieve my goals. I feel like a different person on this diet. Getting rid of the sugars has regulated so many things for me…the difference is amazing. I don’t want to give that part up for anything but can I do it on my own through here simply without paying so much out?

I guess that’s what I’m struggling with the most–having to pay so much out when I haven’t truly made use of the first chunk of cash that went out. And I doubly guess that if I’m going to decide to actually keep paying…I’m going to have to make a conscious decision to USE that site as I’d intended this next round–at least to the point of getting those menus and recipes recorded even if I don’t have time for anything else. Then if I decide to drop out of the official site for South Beach I’ll feel I have an arsenal of help at my finger tips.

Well, I have three days to ponder.