Yes!

I had some major breakthroughs mentally on my current ms this morning and am just bursting with excitement! I can’t wait to write some more!  In case you didn’t notice, I’m in a great mood this morning! Weigh-in day was yesterday for South Beach–I’ve made it through 8 complete days—I have lost 4 pounds. I was praying for 2.  AND I’M NOT STARVING! (imagine a hundred smilies here) I’m exercising and I can’t tell you how much that helps with my writing! The thing that gets me the most here, is I KNOW that. I’ve always known I write better when I get some exercise in each day. Yet, goofball here, still lets it slide now and then.  Goofball.

I have a quote to share:

Quote of the Day
“Forget past mistakes. Forget failures. Forget everything except what you’re going to do now and do it.”
– William C. Durant

That lovely quote is sooooo true. Just say it over in your head…feel the truth of it. It is right. At least for me.  Writing has been hard lately and I’ve tried all kinds of things recognizing a sliding downward slope. New story, writing only for me… the list has gone on. I’ve been stubborn and determined not to give up though and have still written and do see an improvement which does make me feel good. And of course there is the desire–I want this. But I think two years of R’s were finally catching up with me. I questioned everything. My family’s questions changed from, when are you sending things back out, to why aren’t you writing as much any more.

I knew when my kids asked this last one that I was definitely in trouble of letting the past control my future even though I was desperately trying not to. So along with the other changes I’ve been making this past week, I accepted the fact that those R’s had hurt. More than I’d originally figured. And then I forced myself to try something new with how I approach my story layout as well. I mean I truly think my ideas are good. But obviously some thing was missing. So I did it. I answered the questions so many authors tell you to write out–you know all that gooblygawk that I don’t even want to answer for myself! Like, what three qualities characterize her? Name at least one quality that will make us root for him. How are they changed internally?… YUCK! That’s what I have to say to the list goes on. I hate those kinds of questions.

But…wouldn’t you know it… it definitely contributed to the breakthroughs on my story. Figures.  Sometimes I’m just too stubborn for my own good. ***note here - I didn’t ‘write’ the answers out… I still hate answering them and this was an allowance to that dislike. But mentally, I’m forcing myself to face them, obviously if I can’t answer them there must be a reason…

So that’s where I am today, opening the net once in the morning and once in the evening. Writing any other time I get near the computer. The concentrated focus has been awesome to have back.  I’ll update my Sven later tonight.

Cole